A confession

I have a confession to make. ::deep breath:: One of the biggest reasons for not posting here in forever is fear. It's not that I don't want to. It's not that I can't think of something to write about. It's not that I don't make time for it. It's that I'm afraid of what people will think.

I have post ideas all the time - when I'm driving, at work, watching TV... I daydream about how I want my blog to be. But, when I sit down at my computer I always end up on Facebook. So, no more delay! I must conquer this fear, before it conquers me! Besides that, I'm going to start blogging for work, and I need to get used to it.

Now I understand there are many different kinds of blogs. Blogs about food. Blogs focused on reviews. Blogs about this and that and anything you can possibly think of. Well this blog - my one and only is about me and for me. And although I am not a selfish person, I am creating a blog for myself. I need to do it because I like to write and express myself and this is the perfect art in which to do just that. Perhaps one day I will have a few blogs - covering different things, with a zillion readers, who patiently await my next post. Well, right now is not that time. It's onward and upward. In my attempt to squash my posting fear I have to just do it. Just write and hit 'publish.'

There are plenty of bloggers who write jibber jabber and need to pull back the reins a bit - need to really dissect if all those words are necessary. If any of their readers might actually be interested in that topic that they just spewed out so fervently. Well, I am lucky. As of now this blog has but one lone subscriber. My sister. God bless her. So now as my mind is already turning on me, cringing thinking about pressing the looming 'publish post' button I must wrap it up fast. I must pretend this is a typewriter that I'm using. That whatever gets posted, gets posted, never to be removed from the big, fat world w i d e web.

(Good byes have always been hard for me.) I am going to make a goal for blogging to become a habit. A thing I do once per week. I think that's manageable. So, dear sister, thanks for sticking around. I'll see you next week!